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Thursday, May 22, 2025

When Avoidant Love Becomes a Pattern


Recognizing the silent thread in your relationships — and breaking free.

For years, I didn’t have the language to name what I was feeling.
Just a persistent ache.
A quiet loneliness.
A longing to be known that was never fully met.

I told myself I was just “too sensitive,” too expectant, too much. I bent myself into smaller shapes just to fit into other people’s comfort zones. And it worked — for a while. I kept peace. I kept connections. I kept showing up.

But what I didn’t realize is that I was living inside a pattern.
A pattern called avoidant love.


What Is Avoidant Love?

Avoidant love isn’t always cruel. It’s often quiet, passive, even gentle on the surface. But underneath, it’s a kind of emotional starvation.

People with avoidant tendencies keep intimacy at arm’s length. They offer proximity but withhold vulnerability. They might show up for holidays, text back with surface-level responses, or offer affection in small, inconsistent doses — but when it comes to deep emotional connection, they shut down, pull away, or deflect.

It’s not necessarily intentional — it’s often rooted in their own fear, trauma, or childhood wounds. But that doesn’t make it less painful when you’re the one left emotionally hungry.

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.”
Proverbs 13:12


My Pattern Looked Like This:

  • A husband who loved me in theory, but not in deep emotional practice.

  • A father who provided, but never asked what I was feeling.

  • A pastor who preached faithfully, but missed my grief completely.

  • A close friend who depended on my loyalty but never offered the same in return.

Over time, I started to wonder: Why do I keep attracting emotionally unavailable people?
The harder question was: Why do I keep accepting so little and calling it love?


When You’re the “Safe Place” for Avoidant People

If you’ve been the safe harbor for avoidant hearts, you know the exhaustion.

You carry the emotional weight for two.
You do the checking in, the repairing, the remembering.
You rationalize their silence.
You absorb the blame.
You downplay your own needs.

And the saddest part? You start to believe this is just how love works — one person showing up while the other remains elusive.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”
Galatians 6:2

But if you’re always the one carrying, and no one carries you — it isn’t love.
It’s depletion.


Why the Pattern Repeats

Avoidant love becomes a pattern when our soul tries to resolve old wounds with familiar pain.

Maybe you grew up with a parent who was emotionally unavailable. You learned early to equate love with distance. Now, as an adult, you unconsciously find yourself drawn to the same dynamic — not because it’s healthy, but because it’s familiar.

You hope this time you’ll be enough to make them stay.
This time they’ll finally open up.
This time you won’t be left emotionally alone.

But the pattern never heals you. It only deepens the wound.

“You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self… to be made new in the attitude of your minds.”
Ephesians 4:22–23


The Truth That Breaks the Pattern

Here’s what I’ve learned — sometimes through tears and therapy:

  1. You are not too much.
    You are not too needy or too emotional. You are simply craving real intimacy — the kind God designed your heart for.

    “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” — Psalm 139:14

  2. Love shouldn’t feel like silence.
    It should feel like showing up. Like care. Like presence that doesn’t vanish when things get hard.

    “Love… always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” — 1 Corinthians 13:7

  3. You can grieve what they couldn’t give you.
    It’s okay to mourn the love you wanted and never received. That grief is sacred.

    “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” — Matthew 5:4

  4. God is not avoidant.
    He draws near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). He doesn’t withdraw when you cry. He doesn’t need you to be perfect to stay close.

    “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18

  5. You can choose differently now.
    You can stop over-functioning. You can stop begging for crumbs. You can seek out relationships that are mutual, safe, and emotionally alive.

    “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” — Proverbs 4:23


Breaking the Pattern Is Holy Work

It takes courage to admit when a pattern has shaped your story.
It takes even more courage to break it.
To say: I deserve more.
To believe: God has more for me.

You may feel weary right now — depleted from years of trying to be enough for people who wouldn’t let you in. But that exhaustion is holy too. It’s your soul telling you, There’s a better way.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28


You are worthy of real love.
The kind that stays.
The kind that sees.
The kind that gives back.

You’re allowed to expect more — and walk away from less.

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