For a long time, “ministry” had a clear shape in my life. It looked like schedules and church events. Teaching classes. Counseling women. Attending meetings. Saying yes.
It looked like being visible, useful, and needed.
And then, one day, it didn’t anymore.
The roles faded. The doors closed. The emails stopped. The phone stayed quiet. Ministry, as I had known it, seemed to end. And for a while, I thought that meant I had somehow failed—or worse, that God was finished with me.
But I was wrong.
Ministry didn’t end.
It just changed clothes.
It stopped wearing the formal title.
It stopped standing behind a podium.
It stopped showing up on a calendar.
Instead, it started showing up in smaller, quieter, more sacred places.
It looked like sitting in a therapist’s office and doing the work of healing so I could mother my daughters more honestly.
It looked like driving one of them to and from the city, listening more than speaking, being available in body and spirit.
It looked like standing at the kitchen sink praying for someone who never even knew I was still interceding for them.
It looked like answering a late-night text from a friend hanging by a thread.
It looked like crying in the shower and letting Jesus hold me instead of performing strength for others.
It looked like giving myself grace—real, undeserved, daily grace—so I could eventually give it to others again.
For a long time, I thought ministry had to be public to be powerful. I thought it had to be structured to be spiritual. I thought it had to be part of a church building to count.
But now I know: real ministry is often hidden, unglamorous, and deeply holy.
It is tending to the hearts God places in front of you—even when the only heart is your own.
It is trusting that your worth is not tied to your usefulness.
It is believing that God can still use you even when you feel poured out and passed over.
It is remembering that Jesus spent just as much time washing feet in a quiet room as He did preaching on hillsides.
So no, ministry didn’t end.
It just changed clothes.
It stepped out of the spotlight and into my living room.
It traded microphones for whispered prayers.
It exchanged applause for the quiet approval of a Father who sees in secret.
And maybe—just maybe—this version is even more sacred.
Because it costs more.
It’s born out of brokenness.
It’s not done for recognition.
It’s done out of love.
So if you find yourself in a season where your title is gone, your platform is silent, or your ministry looks nothing like it used to—take heart.
It didn’t end.
It just changed clothes.
And the God who called you before still calls you now.
He’s just teaching you to recognize His voice in softer places.
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