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Wednesday, May 28, 2025

Why Emotionally Unavailable People Say All the Right Things

 

— And Leave You Feeling More Alone Than Ever

They say everything you’ve ever wanted to hear.

“I’ve never met anyone like you.”
“I feel so safe with you.”
“We should definitely make plans soon.”
“You’re important to me.”

The words sound like love.
The tone is tender.
The messages drip with intimacy — until you step back and notice the pattern: the words never seem to become anything real.

There are no plans.
No follow-through.
No consistent presence.
Just potential. Possibility. Promises.
And the aching quiet that follows.

You’re not imagining it.
This dynamic is incredibly common — especially in relationships where one person is emotionally avoidant or unavailable. And it’s not just frustrating — it’s deeply wounding.

Let’s unpack why.


💬 The Performance of Intimacy

Emotionally unavailable people often use language to simulate connection.
They’ve learned that connection is something you’re supposed to express — they just don’t know how to live it out. So they rely on the performance of closeness rather than the practice of it.

Warmth becomes their currency, but consistency costs too much.

They’re not necessarily lying. In that moment, they might mean what they say.
But they can’t tolerate the discomfort that true intimacy requires:

  • Presence

  • Vulnerability

  • Accountability

  • Sacrifice

So instead of building the house, they paint a picture of it.
And then leave you standing on a foundation that doesn’t exist.


🧠 The Nervous System of Avoidance

Many emotionally unavailable people carry unhealed trauma. Somewhere along the line, they learned that closeness = danger.

So they do what feels safer:
They offer connection on their terms — controllable, delayed, poetic, and vague.

That looks like:

  • Making plans and canceling last-minute

  • Expressing big feelings… but only through text

  • Saying they care but pulling away when you need them

  • Telling you they miss you but not showing up

It’s not always malicious. But it’s confusing, especially if you’re emotionally available. Because their words say “I’m here,” but their actions say “Stay back.”


💔 The Harm of Being Half-Loved

Over time, these relationships create emotional whiplash.

You feel chosen — but not held.
You feel prioritized — but not protected.
You feel seen — but never really safe.
You keep wondering, “Is this going somewhere, or am I just filling a space in their loneliness?”

And the worst part?
You might start blaming yourself.
“Maybe I’m asking for too much.”
“Maybe I just need to be more patient.”
“Maybe they’ll change if I show them I care enough.”

But love is not a puzzle to be solved.
And you are not a rehab center for people who refuse to grow.


🙏🏼 What Scripture Says About Empty Words

God has something to say about this, too:

“Let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.”
— 1 John 3:18 (NIV)

Real love is active.
It shows up. It sacrifices. It tells the truth even when it’s hard.
It doesn’t just sound good — it does good.

If someone consistently fails to match their words with action, that’s not love. That’s confusion wrapped in flattery.


✨ What You Deserve

You don’t need to beg for consistency.
You don’t need to decipher mixed signals like they’re signs from the universe.
You deserve someone whose presence matches their promises — who shows up, follows through, and chooses you with clarity.

You deserve to feel held — not haunted.
Safe — not scrutinized.
Fully loved — not partially tolerated.

And if someone’s words are beautiful but their behavior leaves you empty?

That’s not love. That’s a performance.

And you, my dear, are no one’s stage.

When God Ends What You Were Willing to Endure

You didn’t see it coming.

The silence.
The sudden shift.
The unanswered messages, the ghosting, the slow fade of someone who once felt essential to your joy, your rhythm, maybe even your identity.

You asked God to heal it.
You asked Him to fix it, mend it, soften it.
You prayed for the person to come back, for the connection to make sense again.
You held on tight, hoping the rupture was temporary.
But they didn’t come back. And it didn’t make sense.

It just… ended.

And it felt like loss.
Because it was.

But here’s the truth that comes not in the moment of heartbreak, but in the slow, quiet healing that follows:

God saw what you couldn’t.
And He called the removal mercy.


The Mercy of the Invisible

There are conversations you never heard.
Motives you couldn’t discern.
Emotional patterns that would’ve drained you dry.
God saw every inch of it — not just who they were to you in your highlight reel, but who they were becoming in the quiet parts of their heart.

Sometimes, we mistake consistency for character.
Time for trust.
History for health.
But God doesn’t make that mistake. He sees beyond the moment. Beyond the nostalgia. Beyond the need.

He saw the nights you’d cry alone while still trying to defend their name.
He saw the way your spirit would slowly start to shrink, the way your peace would unravel by inches, not miles.
He saw the years it would take to undo the damage of staying tied to someone not equipped to love you well.

And He didn’t wait for it to break you.
He stepped in and removed them.

Not because He’s cruel.
But because He’s kind.


Mercy Doesn’t Always Feel Like Love

We often expect mercy to look like rescue.
But sometimes it looks like removal.
Like subtraction.
Like an empty space that used to hold someone’s name.
It feels like abandonment, but it’s not.
It’s intervention.

You thought you were being forgotten, but you were being fiercely protected.

You thought your heart was breaking for no reason —
but there was a reason.
One you might not fully see for months, maybe years.

And even if you never get the apology,
even if the answers never come —
you can trust that the God who gives peace also guards it.


What Mercy Made Room For

The loss didn’t just take something away.
It cleared space.
For truth.
For presence.
For healthier love.
For healing.

It let you breathe again —
the kind of breath that doesn’t tiptoe around someone else’s instability.
The kind of breath that fills your lungs without needing permission.

You started to hear yourself again.
To see yourself.
To remember what your voice sounds like when you’re not shrinking it to avoid someone else’s disapproval.

You began to recognize the difference between love and dependency.
Between connection and codependency.
Between being loyal and being lost in someone else’s chaos.

That is mercy.


A God Who Sees Differently

Scripture says:

“His understanding no one can fathom.”
— Isaiah 40:28 (NIV)

God sees where a road ends long before we do.
And when He calls someone out of our lives, it’s not because we’re unworthy of love —
it’s because He refuses to let us be satisfied with less than whole, mutual, honoring love.


You Didn’t Lose. You Were Saved.

So here’s the truth:
You didn’t lose them.
You were spared.

You didn’t get ghosted by a friend or a partner.
You got guarded by grace.
And sometimes, grace doesn’t knock —
it just leaves.

And that’s okay.
Because God doesn’t owe us explanations,
but He always offers redemption.

Even when we’re grieving.
Even when we don’t understand.
Even when it hurts.

What left wasn’t your ending.
It was your beginning.

And now you get to write a new story —
not with people who make you question your worth,
but with ones who reflect the mercy it took to let go.

The Role of Faith in Healing Trauma

Trauma leaves marks—not only on our minds and bodies but deep within our spirits. It can shake us to our core, leaving us feeling broken, isolated, and overwhelmed. For many, the journey toward healing is not only physical and emotional but deeply spiritual. Faith can be a powerful anchor in the storm, offering hope, comfort, and restoration when everything feels shattered.

In the midst of pain and suffering, the spiritual dimension of healing reminds us that we are not alone. God sees our wounds, understands our pain, and longs to bring wholeness to our lives.


Acknowledging the Depth of Our Wounds

The Bible does not minimize the reality of pain and brokenness. Rather, it acknowledges the full weight of human suffering and invites us to bring our wounds honestly before God. One of the most profound scriptures about shared suffering is found in Isaiah 53:4:

“Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted.”
— Isaiah 53:4 

This passage reveals a staggering truth: God, through Christ, not only sees our pain—He takes it upon Himself. When trauma leaves us crushed and burdened, God is not distant or indifferent. Instead, He walks with us through our darkest valleys, carrying the weight of our wounds alongside us. This shared suffering is the foundation of hope: we are never abandoned in our pain.

In acknowledging our wounds, faith offers permission to grieve deeply and authentically, trusting that God’s presence is there in the rawness of our emotions.


The Body as a Temple of the Holy Spirit

Trauma often feels like a battle between our minds and bodies. But healing requires us to care for both—and more. The Apostle Paul’s reminder in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 grounds us in a sacred truth:

“Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”

This scripture elevates our physical selves to something holy and worthy of care. The scars left by trauma—whether physical pain, emotional wounds, or deep exhaustion—are part of our temple that God inhabits. Caring for ourselves, seeking healing through rest, therapy, prayer, and community, honors God and invites His healing presence into every part of us.

By tending to our bodies with kindness, we cooperate with God’s restorative work, allowing Him to renew not only our spirits but our physical beings.


Faith as a Source of Strength and Hope

Faith doesn’t promise a quick fix or instant erasure of trauma’s effects. Instead, it offers something profoundly sustaining:

  • Strength in weakness: When the burden of trauma feels too heavy, faith reminds us that God’s strength is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). We can lean on Him when we have no strength left.

  • Hope for restoration: Healing may be slow and nonlinear, but God promises restoration. Jeremiah 30:17 says, “I will restore you to health and heal your wounds.” This is a powerful promise to hold onto when the road feels long.

  • Peace in the chaos: The peace God offers surpasses human understanding (Philippians 4:7). It can calm anxious thoughts and soothe a restless heart amid emotional storms.

Faith opens the door for us to move from surviving trauma to gradually thriving despite it—because we do not walk alone.


How to Integrate Faith into Your Healing Journey

Healing trauma spiritually can take many forms, depending on your personal faith practice. Here are some ways to cultivate a faith-centered healing journey:

  1. Prayer and Meditation: Regularly bring your pain, fears, and hopes before God. Prayer is a sacred conversation where God meets you in your suffering and speaks peace to your heart.

  2. Scripture Reflection: Meditate on comforting and encouraging verses that speak to God’s healing nature and presence. Verses such as Psalm 147:3, Isaiah 41:10, and Lamentations 3:22-23 can provide strength.

  3. Community Support: Seek out faith communities that can provide prayer, encouragement, and fellowship. Healing is often nurtured in the context of relationships and shared faith.

  4. Sacred Rest: God invites us to rest—body, mind, and spirit. Learning to say “no” to overcommitment and giving yourself permission to pause is a spiritual act of trust.

  5. Worship and Gratitude: Even in difficult seasons, worship shifts our focus from pain to God’s goodness and faithfulness. Gratitude practices help us recognize blessings, however small, and nurture hope.


You Are Not Alone in Your Healing

Healing from trauma is often a winding and sometimes difficult path. It requires patience, compassion, and faith. But remember this truth: the God who knows every tear, every ache, and every silent cry walks closely beside you.

His Spirit dwells within you, working tirelessly to bring peace, restoration, and renewed life to every part of your being.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18 

No matter how heavy your burden, you do not carry it alone.

The Day My Body Quit Before I Did: When Trauma Shuts You Down

 

When the Body Breaks Down what the Heart Can't Hold 

There were days I would wake up tired. Go through my morning tired. Sit in silence — still tired. No matter how much I rested or how early I went to bed, the fatigue never really left.

At first, I thought something was physically wrong with me. Bloodwork, supplements, caffeine — I tried everything. But the exhaustion wasn’t something I could sleep or supplement away. It wasn’t just in my body. It was coming from somewhere deeper.

It was grief.
It was trauma.
It was the weight of everything I was carrying — unspoken, unprocessed, and unrelenting.


Grief Is a Full-Time Job (and Then Some)

Grief doesn’t just make you sad. It makes you tired.
Because it’s not just emotional — it’s physiological.

When we experience loss or trauma, our nervous system shifts into survival mode. This is what’s often called the fight, flight, freeze, or fawn response. It’s our body’s way of protecting us. And while that response might be helpful in the short term, staying there for too long is draining.

Your body wasn’t made to live in constant alertness. Eventually, it starts to shut down in an attempt to conserve energy. That looks like:

  • Brain fog

  • Chronic fatigue

  • Trouble focusing

  • Difficulty sleeping or wanting to sleep all the time

  • Feeling numb, disconnected, or emotionally “flat”

“My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.”
Psalm 119:28 

Even the psalmist understood what it means to be soul-weary — a weariness that touches your emotions, your body, your ability to think straight.


Why Trauma Drains You

Trauma (especially unresolved trauma) causes your brain and body to operate on high alert — constantly scanning for danger, even when you’re technically safe.

Think of it like having an alarm system that never turns off. You’re not consciously aware of it all the time, but your body is. That low hum of internal vigilance burns energy, even if you’re just sitting still.

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick...”
Proverbs 13:12 

When grief goes unacknowledged or trauma remains untreated, the body carries the cost. You might find yourself asking, “Why do I feel like I’ve run a marathon just from living?” That’s because, in many ways, you have.


You’re Not Lazy — You’re Human

Let me say this clearly:
You are not lazy. You are not weak. You are not making this up.
Your body is responding exactly as God designed it to — to protect, to conserve, and to survive.

But you were made for more than just survival.

Healing begins when we stop pushing ourselves to “get over it” and start honoring what grief has done to our bodies and minds.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 

Jesus doesn’t say, “Come to me when you’re back to normal.”
He says, “Come to me when you are weary.”
And He offers rest — not just for your soul, but for your whole self.


Rest Is Holy, Too

Sometimes rest isn’t a nap or a vacation. Sometimes it’s:

  • Saying no without guilt

  • Letting the dishes sit in the sink

  • Crying instead of powering through

  • Talking to a therapist

  • Taking deep breaths and allowing your nervous system to settle

  • Reading Scripture with no goal other than comfort

“In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength…”
Isaiah 30:15 

There is strength in stillness.
There is healing in listening to your body instead of ignoring it.


If You're Always Tired…

Please know this: the weariness you feel is not a moral failure. It’s the aftershock of a heart that’s endured more than it was ever meant to alone.

You’re not broken. You’re just carrying too much.

But the One who holds the universe is more than able to hold you, too.

Let Him.

Tuesday, May 27, 2025

Coffee in a Dream: When the Soul Still Reaches for Connection

 

The power of quiet symbols — coffee, beaches, moonlight — and what they mean in emotional healing.


There are moments that don’t shout but stay.
They live in the soft corners of memory — not for their drama, but for their stillness.

A glance across a table.
The smell of coffee in the morning.
Moonlight touching a shoulder.
A quiet laugh shared beside the ocean.

These aren’t scenes of grand romance or earth-shattering epiphanies — but of presence. Of connection. Of being emotionally met, even for a flicker.

And sometimes, they show up in dreams.

Not to torment, but to touch.
To remind us that what we long for isn’t always the person — but the feeling.

“He restores my soul…” — Psalm 23:3


The Coffee Wasn’t Just Coffee

In the dream, it was simple.

A cup placed in front of you.
Steam curling.
The warmth traveling from your hands to your chest.

She smiled — not wide, not performative, but soft. Familiar.
Like she remembered who you used to be, and maybe who you still are beneath the layers you’ve built for protection.

But it wasn’t the coffee.
It was what the coffee symbolized.

Ease. Safety. Welcome. Belonging.

A return to something unspoken and grounding.
A connection without complication.

Something so few of us are ever truly offered — or brave enough to receive.

“Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28

In that moment, your soul wasn’t recalling facts.
It was remembering feeling — and what it meant to be seen without needing to perform.


Beaches and Moonlight: The Language of Memory

A beach at night.
Lanterns.
The hush of waves and wind.
Not the setting — but the atmosphere.

The vastness that mirrors your own emotional depth.
The quiet intimacy that still hums in your bones.
The sense of sacred closeness — now only reachable in dream form.

We don’t always dream in details. We dream in impressions.
In feelings.
In soul echoes.

“Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.” — Psalm 42:7

A scent.
A laugh.
A hand that once brushed yours across the console in the car.

These are emotional waypoints — markers on the map of your healing.

You may wake with an ache and not know if it’s about her, or about the version of yourself who felt alive in her presence.


When the Soul Reaches in Sleep

Dreams often reveal the truth we’re too weary or guarded to say aloud.

“I still miss the connection.”
“I still wonder if it meant to her what it meant to me.”
“I still carry that warmth, even now.”

And yet—dreams are not chains. They are mirrors.
Gentle ones. Sacred ones.

“God speaks again and again, though people do not recognize it. He speaks in dreams, in visions of the night…” — Job 33:14–15

Maybe this is not about going back.

Maybe it’s about seeing clearly.

That what you long for isn’t always reconciliation — but recognition.
Of the beauty that once lived between you.
Of the parts of you that were awakened in that season.


Love Without a Destination

There is a kind of love that no longer demands arrival.
It exists in memory, in moments, in dreams that don’t bind — but bless.

This isn’t about nostalgia.
It’s about honoring what was real.
And choosing not to let it rule what’s next.

“There is a time for everything… a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing.” — Ecclesiastes 3:1, 5

So when the dream fades and you wake to the soft light of morning,
let the ache speak.
Sip your coffee.
Close your eyes.
Say her name if you need to.

And then —
Keep walking toward your healing.

Because while the past may visit,
you no longer live there.

You live in grace.
You live in wholeness.
You live in the gentle strength of knowing who you are, even when the dream dissolves.


Because the connection was real.
The dream was a gift.
And your healing?
It is holy ground.

“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” — Jeremiah 31:3